Don't wanna know

I know something is going on.

I know that something is just not right. 

I know everyone is keeping it silent from me.

And I know everyone is suffocating while dealing with it.

But do you know that knowing half of the story is more suffering than that?

I seriously don't know what's happening.

Sometimes I just feel that not knowing about this at all would make me better.

Everytime I picked up the phone and dialed the number,

I would always went far away from the initial topic.

Yes, I didn't dare to ask.

And now that I realized I am better off like this.

Knowing nothing.

This is the best.

I know running away won't solve any problem.

But if it's gonna hurt me, I would rather not know it at all!